知足

从柬埔寨回来，我不断地在日常生活中复习着“知足“这两个字。

为什么这么说呢？柬埔寨大多的人民都活在贫困中，他们每一天都努力地为基本生活需求而奋斗。由于游客是吴哥窟（Angkor Wat ) 的主要经济来源，于是当地人就聚集在吴哥窟的每一个角落销售产品，只要是路过的游客，一个都不放过。当中，五至十岁的小孩占了绝大部分。他们手上拿着扇子，纪念品，明信片。。。穿着破旧的衣服，黑黑的脸蛋，甚至赤着脚，小嘴缺滔滔不绝的地推销手上区区一美金的商品，一路跟着你，用恳求的声调要你买，哪怕只是一美金的卡片。"10 cards for only 1 dollar. One, two, three, four..." 然后不停地数着手上的卡片。当我看到这一幕，再想想我国的小孩是多么地幸福，心里一阵酸酸的。我可以帮助一两个，而其他的十个，二十个，三十个怎么办呢？才不到十岁的他们不是应该待在父母的怀抱吗？不是应该在学校上课吗？不是应该过着无忧无虑的快乐童年吗？残酷的现实却剥夺了他们该有的童年。想起这些，又不禁悲从中来。

其中三个让我最印象深刻的：

1）当我拒绝大约七岁的她时说的No thanks. 她说：I don't want you to say thanks, I want you to buy.

当时我的心是搅痛的。

2）当我站在树下乘凉时，一个看起来大概四岁的小女孩，手上拿着细细的树枝，蹲在红泥地上画画。起初我还摸不着头脑她在画什么，看着看着原来她画的是离她不远处的民族鼓。

这时，同情心又再次被触动。

3） 当我回答小孩说我是马来西亚人，他们异口同声地"Malaysia, capital city Kuala Lumpur, Satu, dua,tiga, empat...."好厉害呀！都是读书的料嘛！我怀疑他们是从学校学的？还是大人为了商业活动来讨好游客才教的呢？我不知道, 但我希望是前者。

11岁的她，赤着脚，在大阳光底下卖明信片。她有一双漂亮的眼睛，拍照时不失笑容。

姐姐抱着还不会走路的弟弟坐在一层楼高的石头

当然还有包括当地的按摩小姐，月薪才六十美元，每天工作长达十七小时。他们一口流利的英文是从跟游客交谈学会的。

亲眼看见他们当地的生活，让我更学会知足，珍惜并感谢我所有的一切，无论是人，事，物。

当你有一颗知足的心，你便不会去埋怨身边的不足，反而会珍惜和用心体会生活中的点点滴滴。

要知足，不要一味地跟别人比较。一山还比一山高。人比人，比死人啊！

Kundasang, Sabah

I am here again, Kundasang

2 years ago I was here with my coursemates and I knew my family will love this place as much as I did. So now they are here to see this God's masterpiece - Mount Kinabalu ! 

Kundasang is about 2 hours drive from Kota Kinabalu International Airport. Along the way to Kundasang, I realized that I missed a lot of beautiful sceneries last time because I came here at night. The driver dropped us at the roadside to take pictures of Mt Kinabalu when the thick clouds gave ways to the peak of the mountain. The view is truly breathtaking and we took much photos at the same place @.@ Haha

See the uneven curve of the mountain top? That's the peak of Mt Kinabalu. Therefore it is easily spotted from different places in Kundasang. Aunt, grandma, mummy and daddy are my travel mates this time. Jomeng is not here because he can't take a leave off work.

Soon, we checked in to Kinabalu Pine Resort. It is located 15 mins drive from Kinabalu Park and all the chalets which are surrounded by tall pine trees and have a great view of Mount Kinabalu. We just relaxed ourselves and walked around on the first day while enjoying the cool breeze. 

Spectacular view from the balcony. Can't wait to take in super fresh air in the morning while peninsular is suffering haze problem recently. The sky at Sabah turns bright around 6am everyday and I noticed that there are more stars in the sky at night compared to peninsular Malaysia. 

Poring Hot Spring, Kundasang

Get yourself a hot sulphur spring bath at Poring. The hot water of the spring is piped into open aired baths. This place was first developed b the Japanese during World War II. You can control the water temperature by adjusting the volume of cold and hot water taps. I didn't get in the bathtub as I think it is not very clean ( a bit germaphobia). So I just sat aside and watched my family soaked into hot spring.

Canopy walk is much preferable. There are total 5 suspension bridges and it was quite exciting especially it shakes when you walk along. Haha. Each suspension bridge can only support 6 person but not very high, likely 8 floors from the ground. If you want to experience an easy and not tiring jungle trekking, canopy walk is recommended.

Thats all for today. There are still a lot of stories from Sabah but I am too lazy now. I haven't pack my luggage for Cambodia tomorrow. Ahh..lazy to move. Actually I am not well prepared for Cambodia trip. I don't have a timetable. I just wanna see Angkor Archaeological Park. So, I just tell my mum it's going to be a relaxing trip. Haha lame excuse. 

Oh friends, I found a job already. Starting on the next day after I come back from Siem Reap. Hopefully I can cope with that. Anyway, I will still play to the max during the trip! Chao!

我们这一GANG

同一Gang的，请吐舌头

这四年来99%的日子都是和你们一起度过的。我们每天一起上课、打闹、玩乐、吃饭、饮茶。没有你们的大学日子应该只剩下书和电脑罢了。

四年，不是很长，却足以将我们从陌生人 > 系友 > 好友 > 再荣升为 ‘猪朋狗友’。 哈哈！还有，还有，我们的青春期也是一起过的哟！

大家都不畏把喜怒哀乐挂在脸上。高兴就笑，不爽就讲，因为都很熟了，也不怕彼此会因此而生气或离开。忠言逆耳嘛。加上大家都很熟悉彼此的性格了，所以平时都会尽量避免‘踩中地雷’的。

接下来要炫耀我们的班级照一下。呵呵

取景于UPM的‘名树’。MV、广告、婚纱照的好景点

太POWERFUL了啦。魅力无法挡

UPM Bukit Expo

YES 我地得咗！FSKTM

WIWD GANG 万岁！四岁！大家在面子书Group里面保持联络吧！

同时我也Edit了一些照片，让它们看起来好像老照片一样，因为大学生活将成为我记忆中的一部分。Neh~

打打闹闹的日子终于告一段落了。舍不得啊!!! 非常地珍惜这一段友情。最后，还是老话一句：

珍重

答案

前天无意间发现了一件事情。这件事回答了我3年来的疑问，也让我看清事情的真相。

若要人不知，除非己莫为。

我并没打算拆穿你，为的是我们多年的友情。

我的直觉是准的。之前的猜测其实就是无可否认的真相。

所以当我无意间发现这件事的时候，并没有特别的失落，因为我早就练好‘免疫力‘。反而觉得事情终于告一段落了。

之前的不甘心，不明白和坚持都好像王力宏在春雨里洗过的太阳这首歌词里面：呼的一声飞得老远老远。

我个人内心挣扎的问题是解决了，剩存的问题是要怎样面对你。因为要以知道真相的心情去面对，又不能被发现，不容易。

船到桥头自然直。就让这句谚语发挥它的功效吧！

玫瑰是有刺的。你被刺伤是因为你不够了解它。

Degree. Full stop

Class cancelled...

This is how i end my very last class of my degree life.

Yeah. 4 years degree in UPM has finally comes to an end. I still remember my first day stepped in to this beautiful campus accompanied by my worried parents. I was nervous and excited at the same time.

All of those like happened in a blink of eyes. Year 1, year 2, year 3 and now final year. I can say that i adapted well in Upm. Life in the campus is very different with the one back in hometown.

I am used to the people here. I am used to stick around with my buddies here. I am used to the environment here. I am used to......i am used to......so much other things.

Now, I feel really hard to leave every thing here. But this is life. Life moves on. And this will become a part of my memories. I believe that no matter 3 years, 10 years or 20 years, when i look back to my uni life, i'll have a warm feeling in my heart. All these memories me and my friends created will not fade.

Upm, you see me grow, you see me change.
You gave me a platform to change to a better person.
I learned, i gained and i want to thank you never end.